28 July 1998 RI-1077i 'Repaying evil with BIGGER evil - Freya repaying Jutta' from Ambassador for Mankind Message # RI-1077i for Internet 'If you want to drive YOURSELF really insane, go and meet evil with evil.' 'Ambassador for Mankind' SUMMARY "I am 'repaying' her evil of HER intending me to have no possessions and no friends and intending that I be lifeless, with bigger evil of me INTENTIONALLY deciding to be destroyed by her evil intentions on me - that is, to exactly EXECUTE her evil intentions on me, by ME deciding to WANT to have nothing, and be lifeless and want no friends, instead of me OPPOSING her evil intention that I have nothing, me CONTINUING to want to have possessions and friends, and ['repaying' her evil with bigger evil] of me INTENTIONALLY UPSETTING Jutta about her good intentions, by making her believe, by radiating to her that 'she cannot control her evil intentions' and that 'she can only be insane'." 'Freya Nolst Trenite' Freya Nolst Trenite, on 13 July 1998, 21:40 GMT: "In Altenbuch [village in Germany], in the Spring of 1986, [when I tried to defend myself against Jutta's, my mother's, taking my possessions away, and I tried to look at her extreme problems with life, and when Jutta - actually her 'friend' L. Ron Hubbard, with her - in response to my looking, launched a huge spiritual attack against me, by suddenly dumping all their hidden, extremely insane problems and upsets and all their hidden, extremely insane solutions onto me, with the enormous mental force they are capable of,] [I decided in 1986 - as a 'solution', to this enormously forceful confusion and hate thrown by them at me, taking over THEIR 'solution' to THEIR problems -] I decided to be criminal, to be extremely mean and ugly to everybody, to want to be Admired by ugly people [by Reiss, Jutta, Hubbard, and other people being ugly], to hate and destroy myself and Jutta and Koos and anybody, to [mentally] kick anybody out [of my life], and to want to BE hated by anybody, IN ORDER to hide from myself and from anybody else the extreme upsets and problems that Jutta and Reiss and L. Ron Hubbard threw at me, and in order to hide MY extreme upset about and MY extreme problem about them doing that to me [about why they would enforce their hate and evil onto me with such tremendous, confusing force of rightness of doing so]." 'Freya Nolst Trenite' (See RI-1072i 'True Nature of Extreme Hate and Evil...' of 14 July 98 http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-1072i.htm RI-980i 'Character of any heavy Suppressive Person, Jutta seen by Freya' http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-980i.htm RI-972Si 'Hidden but Executed Intentions of the paintress Jutta' http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-972si.htm) Freya Nolst Trenite, on 19 July 1998, 09:33 GMT: (...) "I started my intention to destroy [prevent the survival of] Jutta in [the German village called] Altenbuch, in Spring 1986, where I 'found it totally all right' to hate Jutta and be extremely ugly to Jutta in order to (pretend to) 'oppose' her intention to destroy [prevent the survival of] me [her intending me to be lifeless and have no possessions]. "It's a pretense, of so-called 'opposing' her, while in actual fact it is completely executing what evil she is doing [explained below] - what evil [destruction of my survival] she intends on me. "I am pretending to 'oppose' Jutta's (and L. Ron Hubbard's and Reiss') intention to destroy me [to prevent my survival] by me destroying HER (by me preventing HER survival) - which I do mainly by deciding to BE destroyed by her (and their) evil intentions on me (by me REFUSING to even try opposing her evil intentions that I be lifeless and have no friends and no possessions and by me instead deciding that I WANT no friends and no possessions), and by driving her more insane than she already is (by enforcing that I believe 'she will never become sane [even at moments of sanity], and she can never stop intending evil [even when she temporarily has stopped]'). "In this way I am being much more destructive to Jutta (and to myself) than Jutta was to me. "It's a pretense of opposing her, because I am exactly EXECUTING Jutta's intention to destroy me: By wanting no friends, no possessions, by making myself ugly towards myself and others. (By being very hateful to others.) (...) "What in Altenbuch [in 1986, when I decided to go insane] would have been actually defending myself, actually opposing Jutta's intention to drive me insane, would have been to continue saying 'No, I don't want to be destroyed [I don't want my life stopped, I want to continue being alive].' and 'Koos, help me to not get destroyed [help me to defend myself against Jutta and help me against her overwhelming me].' "Instead I decided to want to be destroyed by Jutta and I decided to hide from Koos that Jutta is intending to destroy me." (...) [Koos:] How were you pretending to oppose Jutta's evil intention to destroy you? [Freya:] "By 'kicking her out' (by wanting to not know about her - about how badly she treats people, and also not about her good intentions), by hating her (by opposing Jutta's survival, opposing her having possessions [preventing her from having possessions, intending her to have no possessions], opposing her when she tries to admit [act upon the truth of] something wrong [something destructive] she did or is doing). "By INTENTIONALLY NOT STOPPING HER FROM DESTROYING THINGS, by MAKING myself extremely ugly towards myself and others, by INTENTIONALLY letting myself be destroyed by Jutta." (...) [Koos:] How are you executing your intention to destroy Jutta (to prevent Jutta's survival)? [Freya:] "I am destroying Jutta BY being extremely ugly to her, especially by executing HER evil intentions (her intentions to destroy her own and others' life). "I am executing my intention to destroy Jutta (to prevent her survival), by being intentionally mean to her. "I especially do this by INTENTIONALLY executing her evil intentions - instead of controlling Jutta's evil intentions (by preventing Jutta from executing her evil intentions) or at least refusing myself to execute her evil intentions (by refusing to LET her prevent me from having possessions or having friends and refusing to LET myself become lifeless, 'dead', and refusing to LET Jutta prevent me from being with Koos), "In order to destroy [prevent the survival of] Jutta, I INTENTIONALLY execute HER evil intentions to destroy me, to prevent my survival, (which I execute by me INTENTIONALLY deciding myself to want to have no possessions and no friends, and so completely executing HER intention that she wants that I have no friends and no possessions) and her evil intentions to prevent the survival of others, like of Koos (which I execute by me intending that Koos believes Jutta's pretenses of being fine, that Koos has no friends, that Koos has no possessions - and so executing JUTTA's evil intentions that Koos has no possessions and no friends, and that Koos doesn't make Jutta sane)." (see RI-972Si 'Hidden but Executed Intentions of the paintress Jutta' http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-972si.htm) "I am 'repaying' her evil (of HER intending me to have no possessions and no friends and intending that I be lifeless), with bigger evil (of me INTENTIONALLY deciding to be destroyed by her evil intentions on me, by deciding to WANT to have nothing instead of me opposing her evil intention that I have nothing, and me continuing to want to have possessions). (...) [Koos:] How were you responding to her evil by being MORE evil to her than she to you? (...) [Freya:] "I was being more evil to her than she to me by making her MANAGE to destroy me [prevent my survival]. I was INTENTIONALLY deciding to destroy myself [to myself prevent my own survival], and to EXECUTE her evil intentions. "I was being more evil to her than she to me by INTENTIONALLY UPSETTING Jutta about her good intentions, by making her believe that 'she cannot control her evil intentions'." (...) [Koos:] How did you drive her more insane (at times) when she stopped her evil intention (to destroy you)? [Freya:] "By throwing (spiritually) at her that 'I see she is insane' and that 'I believe she will never stop being insane'." [Koos:] In other words, you were denying to her (the times) when she stopped her evil intentions. [Koos:] How else did you drive her more insane? [Freya:] "Very often when she was pretending to be fine I was driving her more insane by me intentionally believing her pretenses - even though I saw Jutta was pretending. "I was driving Jutta more insane by me intentionally NOT wanting to have things also when we DID have money - EXECUTING her intention that 'I should not have anything', also when I was in a situation where I very easily could have not executed this evil intention of Jutta. "I was driving Jutta more insane by hating and attacking Koos (which was again to execute my decision to make myself ugly and hateful towards others in order to hide from Koos and others my extreme upset about Jutta overwhelming me in 1986) and so confusing Jutta about Koos as well." (...) [Koos:] How else did you or do you drive her more insane? (...) [Freya:] "I drive Jutta more insane by pretending to her that I cannot defend myself against her destroying me, where I am intentionally executing her evil intentions. (...) "I was driving Jutta more insane by wanting HER to have no possessions especially when you, Koos, gave them to her (as presents for example). "I was driving Jutta more insane by wanting her not to express that she likes you, Koos, and by me hating her when she tries to express her liking (especially when she tries to express her liking by giving you hugs and kisses). "I was driving Jutta more insane especially by radiating that 'she will never stop being insane', that 'she will never become sane'." [Koos:] How forcefully were you radiating this, that 'Jutta will never stop being insane'? [Freya:] "Very forcefully. By - almost anytime that I think about her or looked at her in the physical universe - thinking 'she is somebody who is insane and who will always be insane and will always refuse to be sane'." [Koos:] As was proven in history, right? [Freya:] "No. You made her sane in her lifetime as Benjamin Franklin." (see RI-941i 'Benjamin Franklin's fatal decision of 1788' of 24 Oct 1997 http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-941i.htm RI-929i 'Simple Detection: "Sane or Insane?"' of 11 Sept 1997 http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ri-929i.htm) [Koos:] How else are you driving Jutta (more) insane? [Freya:] "I am driving Jutta more insane by denying and destroying your, Koos', help to get me to stop destroying Jutta, to get me to stop making myself very ugly in order to destroy her. (...) "I drove Jutta (more) insane by radiating that 'I believe that she will never stop being insane' - especially when she WAS stopping to be insane and especially when she was trying to admit and and be honest about evil she did or is doing." [Koos:] How were you responding to Jutta's evil by being more evil to her than she to you? (...) [Freya:] "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by hating her and radiating that she is insane, when she DID want me to have something and did give me something. "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by intentionally wanting to be 'dead' and upset ALSO when she was not intending me to be 'dead', lifeless. "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by hating and opposing Koos' handling her (giving her therapy) - that 'Koos would be wasting his time, because Jutta will never become sane anyway'. (...) "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by me wanting to not know about what Jutta is doing, where she is going to visit people, how she is treating people. "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by not wanting to stop Jutta from doing evil, also when I have a strong suspicion that she is going to (that she is intending to do some evil secretly). "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by intentionally not stopping, not trying to stop and also not pointing out when Jutta is treating us very badly. "I am being more evil to Jutta than she to me by preventing you from selling, by intending you to not sell paintings, by intending you to not make income, (by executing Jutta's intention that you do not sell, and so do not have possessions). (...) "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by hiding from you, Koos, and totally refusing to talk about that Jutta attacked me heavily and overwhelmed me in Altenbuch, 1986. (...) "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by making myself intentionally psychotic and refusing to talk to you (about my problems), (especially since 10 February 1998, when you were being very alive and wanted to sell paintings, and I wanted to heavily hide from you that I am in a bad condition and that I have the intention to destroy Jutta, and by hiding that from you also preventing you from controlling or helping me to control my intention to destroy Jutta). "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by hiding from you since twelve years what I see about Jutta (her evil intentions and pretenses) that you did not see. "I was being more evil to Jutta than she to me by hating you, Koos, when YOU want to do nice things - executing Jutta's intention that you be lifeless, 'dead'." (...) 'Freya Nolst Trenite' Freya Nolst Trenite, on 21 July 1998, 18:41 GMT: [Koos:] What do you 'enjoy' about going intentionally crazy? Is it 'proving' to people that they (Richard Reiss, Jutta, L. Ron Hubbard) are crazy and drive people insane? [Freya:] "Yes. True. "By going intentionally crazy (as explained above) I am PRETENDING to show, pretending to 'prove' to people that 'I am upset' about Jutta (and Richard Reiss and L. Ron Hubbard), about their overwhelming me in Spring 1986, about their intention to destroy me. "It is a pretense because ACTUALLY telling people about my upset would be to TALK about my upset and about HOW I was overwhelmed, and to tell others to HELP me to defend myself against Jutta's (and L. Ron Hubbard's and Richard Reiss') intention to destroy me (to prevent my survival, make me lifeless). "And it is a pretense because by me going intentionally crazy I am (as explained above) exactly EXECUTING their intention to destroy me (to prevent my survival)." 'Freya Nolst Trenite' Koos Nolst Trenite - Ambassador for Mankind Copyright 1998 by Koos Nolst Trenite Personal Web-page: http://ArtOrg.com Personal Web-Library: http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/ Library Search Engine: http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/search.html The 'Understanding Suppression Series': http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/usp.htm Telepathy, How to do it - The science of it - Real life, vital applications http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/ri-bulletins/telepathy.htm References (available at the Library "http://AmbassadorForMankind.org/"): - About Sanity, Helping People, Care, Responsibility and Facing Evil RI-1062i 'Definition of the truth' of 18 June 1998 RI-1060i 'Correct Definition of Affinity (for life, for people)' RI-962i 'The Master Path to Life - Platonism understood' of 1 Nov 97 RI-629i 'Definition of Care' of 12 July 1996 RI-602i 'Definition of Power' of 20 June 1996 RI-801i '"You can never leave" - The spiritual universe' of 14 Mar 1997 RI-929i 'Simple Detection: "Sane or Insane?"' of 11 Sept 1997 RI-714i 'State of Sanity, Definition of' of 24 Oct 1996 RI-537i 'The Right to Demand Awareness' of 15 Apr 1996 RI-908i 'The Ostrich-factor - on facing evil or criminality' 16 Jul 97 RI-974i 'Truth about "Not putting attention on evil of others"' 27 Nov 97 - About Jutta (and L. Ron Hubbard and Richard Reiss) RI-1067i 'Jutta controlling herself TOWARDS criminality and insanity' RI-1016i 'Jutta's mental fight with Richard Reiss' of 15 Mar 1998. RI-965i 'Jutta and L. Ron Hubbard: "Dominate and Be Dominated!" - VITAL RI-981i 'Jutta RUNNING AWAY - from facing Richard Reiss driving her insane' RI-967i 'Jutta: "Communicating with Koos is knowing myself"' of 26 Aug 1997 RI-964i 'Jutta: With Koos, care for people - Without Koos, dominating...' 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